Update on life

Ever since leaving my job at Sainsburys in November, I have been trying to find a potential job which suits to what I want to do in the future. But unfortunately, unlucky me I didn't get any interviews and got loads of rejections from job applications.

So now, last week I started work experience for an accountancy firm for 4days a week. Which I would advice all people who want to have a career in particular job style, to have experience at a SMALL firm! As larger firms would be picky and have to go through all those letter requirements and sign forms etc.

Bah

I know I have not updated anything that I thought I would, but I can tell you that the sleep separation routine of my nephew is definitely working as now I can nearly walk away and go into my room to go on the computer :). Once I'm at the door, I leave the door open but close the hall light and open another light in a different room to make sure that my nephew can see some light. But remember, I still sat on the floor at the door!

I am passed the hallway into my room with the sitting down whilst my nephew is in his cot.

Guess what I am dreading though, if I have to do the same thing when he starts to sleep in a big boys BED! I hope he would be brave enough and not come out of his bed when he gets older during bedtime.

Benzoyl peroxide Oxy10

Nah, didn't use that much of this product as it irritated my face too much that I got really angry frustrated with the dryness of my skin. So be careful if you are using this product as it would probably remove the acne but at a pain to bare with for a few days plus!

Fricking sweet!

I have found out a way to remove my fricking annoying spots! How? By using Benzoyl peroxide Oxy10.

I shall keep you with update how it's going and how it looks everyday, now I am just testing the produce on my neck to see if any abnormal reaction occurs. So far none and it's been a day.

Sleep Separation day 1

I did his normal routine of bath time, reading a book, a hug and telling him goodnight. I also made a bottle of warm water for him to drink for if he needs to drink after crying and screaming.

8:50 into bed, drinking his bottle.

8:57 crying begins. He kept crawling up on his cot peering to see me and he also sat back down trying to reach me through the cot. He kept rubbing his feet on his mattress whilst crying.

9:17 He went for his bottle of water and then continues crying. He tries in between this time to lay down the mattress twice.

9:20 He stopped crying and just sits there looking around and lays down couple of times on his bed in either side of his cot. Tries to lay down and drink his bottle but fails a couple of times but eventually he figures it out. He just lays on the cot looking around and lifting his feet in the air.

9:30 He stands up one more time and accidentally drops his bottle on the floor, so he gets back down into his cot and lays down on his front, but he didn't feel comfortable so he adjust his duvet slightly and lays back down. Eventually he closes his eyes.

9:35 fast asleep.

I sat close enough next to the cot but not close enough for him to touch me, which almost happened. Man, I wonder how long this would take and how fast he would know. Or would he not like me so much tomorrow.

Stupid!

I see someone updating their status at that time so I decided to message her to see how she is and what she has been up to as I have not spoken to her since high school, so what does she do? Nothing! No reply nor anything, oh but wait she still replies to her status. Just plain stupid!

Put baby to sleep on their own.

Everytime my nephew was tired, all we did was use the Rocking Bouncer chair until he was 6months then he did not like the bouncer after 6months old. So we had to carry him, rocking him to sleep.

When he was about 4months, I introduced a bedtime routine but I stopped due to my sister getting home at 1am and my nephew would have had enough sleep from 7pm, as he wanted to play with his mother when she gets home. There was no sleeping arrangements of where he took his nap.

Now, he is 10months we thought it was time for him to Sleep on his own. About 2weeks ago, I introduced a routine of his day which he has stuck to it perfectly.

0800 Baby wakes up.
0830 Baby breakfast.
1200 Nap time.
1300 Wake baby up from nap time.
1330 Baby lunch (Only because we eat at that time for lunch too).
1530 Nap time.
1730 Wake baby up from nap time.
1800 Baby dinner.
1945 Baby snack of fruit.
2030 Bath time, story time, then bedtime.
2230 Make baby feed for him to drink whilst he's asleep in cot.

Bed time would be about 9pm.

We still rock him to sleep but at the same room as his cot is at.

I am going to introduce him to sleep on his own this following Tuesday beginning with his bedtime. Then the following day, for his nap time as well as bedtime.

Since we have been rocking him to sleep, we decided to make my nephew less distressful during sleeping time, we shall stay in the room next to his cot and gradually move closer to the door away from his cot. It's going to be tiring for me, as I am the only one at home looking after him whilst his parents are at work, bah.

I will keep posting on how each day is and how it went of sleeping on his own.

Boo!

I'm back just to update my life as haven't been on here for a bit. I decided to buy a desktop as my current one sounds as if I am vacuuming. I got myself a dell computer the one with processor of Intel i3 :D So hopefully that would arrive soon ^^

I have been talking to the introduced guy on facebook by messaging each other but I have no idea what else to talk about as I am making a load of random questions... almost asked him all the questions I can think of :O Help!

Going to China, China, China!!! Well in June but that's soon anyway. What is good to get relatives who live in China from here? All I think of is buying jewellery which they have there and it's more cheaper in China as well.

ok...

Ah crap. My sister recieved a call from her husband;s sister asking if I flipping have a boyfriend bah! I do not want a boyfriend yet! I haven't even got myself a job which I want. So hilarious that it happened. But seriously no-one would want to go out with me, I am introvert lol! Really, anti-social person! I am the laziest git you'll ever meet in socialising! I hate spending my money, like things free, feel the need to return stuff to equivalent cost if you give me anything! Even if you give me a freaking sweet! I would probably give you a sweet back or give you money of pennies for the sweet.

Wow

My mum just went up to me to give me a sweet and said "You're ugly". Wow, what a great mum. Thanks for the compliment! I know in general I am not all girly nor look much of a girl but do not bring me down further than I am feeling already.

During my childhood, I was always told that I looked like a boy and I am a boy. Wow, life just treated me like dirt throughout my childhood which haunted me and still it haunts me now.

I do not think I shall ever be a girl, I would always be a boy to some.

Just finished working at Sainsburys, learning to code check. Whoever replenish the products of the fresh department does a pretty bad job of rotation. It took me bloody long to look through the products for long life code checking because of bad, bad, bad rotation.

Nephew is now sleeping so I am just having a go on the computer, playing on facebook lol!

8months

My nephew is 8 months today. Just 4 more months until he is 1 years old. Learning to crawl recently, too attached to me and his mother; basically I replace the father lol!

Busy Bee

I am going to get 4 more hours at work due to probably taking over for someone who is going to have maternity leave. So the hours work perfectly for my sister at work since I end at four and she works at five.

I have been doing driving lessons and just a couple more lessons left before I can do the test. If you leave in West Yorkshire I can recommemd a great driving instructor but best to block book the lessons as cheaper overall.

I have been playing on facebook applicaions such as Cafe World, Farmville, Restaurant City, Country Story and Zoo World. Ha ha ha! Only when my nephew is asleep I can play as very active at the moment.

I shall just post on here random comments similar to twitter but just not on twitter if you get what I mean.

Hi Hi

Do you know who says that? It's the piplings on Waybuloo on CBeebies that says that. My nephew has just recently reached his 6month and loves watching this show. He is always smiling at this show and does not take his eyes off it at once; well only when he see the cheebies, he is not that interested in it. I think he only prefers the piplings and not the cheebies at all lol! Well only updating abit since he is watching it now whilst I go make a cup of tea :)
Ciao

Gross

Why does my sister always have sex at my home? The walls are so thin and the floor is very weak so you can hear every movements! argh! Gross. gross, gross! Told her to not do that at this house but at their shop instead in their own room! I'll rather look after their kid longer if they do not do that in a house where everyone lives in!

Oh well

I was going to draw a picture every day as an Advent Drawing Christmas thing but did not go to plan as I do not have the time nor the energy whilst looking after my nephew.

My brother is already back from university for the holidays so I am not always on the computer anymore. I am forced to use his laptop which has no files of mine and he does not tell me the password so I have to keep asking to type his password for his laptop everyday.

My nephew is now 6months, he has recently got more stable whilst sitting up and always rolling over onto his front whilst sleeping. He does not really like my brother to feed or to make him fall asleep. He always cries, but is alright when it is playtime with my brother.

I have to work overtime at Sainsburys due to Christmas time season. I have to work from 7am til 3pm to help look after my nephew at the evening. Man, I am going to be dead tired but at least I can sleep in on Christmas Eve; when I do not have to work on.

I am also told to get some gifts for a raffle for Christmas day. So I have bought one item so far; a photo frame (£1.59) and so many more to buy.

Advent Calendar Drawing 1/12

Ooops

I have just been busy almost everyday if it is not working, it is charity, it is also driving lessons, and also looking after my nephew.

Only day I truly have a day off is Saturday even though I am still looking after my nephew which I do not think it is that hard so far. Probably because I am use to looking after him.

First day working at Sainsburys was abit off putting due to one of the workers. He kept saying oh it was so bad working there, oh the department manager is racist and oh this is his part-time job where he works elsewhere too. I DO NOT CARE! He just kept going on and on about stuff which made my day even worst. Lucky enough I did not have to spend most of my time talking to him. At the last hour of the day I was literally on my own, all the workers had left since they only had a shift until 6pm and me at 7pm. So no-one told me how to push the trolleys that you carry milk on away. So I struggled quite bad. I wish we could have music on when there are no customers about. So I was just listening to music in my head whilst it was deserted.

The second and third day was much better since I did not have to stay there until it was deserted as well as the colleague that just talked crap about the job was not there. I tried to work as fast as I could to do all the cheese stock but I still left about 4boxes which I could have checked but I had to go due to looking after my nephew.

Every Tuesday from now on, I have to stay at my sister's takeaway with my nephew since I end at 4pm which would take too long to drive home and back to work for my sister. It was so annoying and boring since my sister could have driven me and my nephew back home at 7pm as it was quiet hour time, my sister's husband said no, it might get busy. Did it get busy? No. So I had to stay there bored out of my mind until 10pm! Whilst we were about to leave my sister's husband said to my sister, "come back soon!". So when my sister dropped me and my nephew off, and went back to work. My sister's husband rang to tell me that my sister did not have to go back to work that day since it is closing time almost. ROAR! WTF! That is so stupid! Could have rang earlier! Noooo, you had to tell my sister to come back soon back to work!

I am pretty pissed off at my sister's husband! He does the dumbest things and annoys me to hell! I thought "brother-in-law"s was suppose to be alright but not annoying! He is probably 10 times more annoying than my brother! My brother is not that bad but I had to have some reference to show how bad.

At the moment, my sister's husband stays at the takeaway above to make to easier to set up the food the next day. So, my sister's husband needed to go to town to get something signed, but my sister cannot drive him as she needs to look after her baby whilst I go to charity. He complained to my sister about "why did I need to go to the Charity?". What this heck? So I have to make MY LIFE to revolves around him! I think not!

I would like to try to work full-time at a job which I want to do with my career but because I am basically a full-time nanny, I can't. So I shall just keep on going with my charity volunteers, part-time job, and driving lessons until the time is better where my sister can look after my nephew at work.

Oh, my aunt (my mum's sister) is pregnant but at the early stages so just have to wait :) So my aunt's future baby would be an aunt/uncle to my nephew hahaha!

Roar!

Argh! I am so angry at the moment! I try to do EVERYTHING my parents want me to. Find a job, driving, charity and many more stuff. So what do I do? Yes, I do everything they WANT me to do.

So just about 5minutes ago, my dad tells me to go to his room and look at the computer, I thought it would be just about his computer issues. But no, it was about finding a job! What the frick?!? I just got a job at Sainsbury's and now you want me to find a different job?!?! I have not even started my first shift at Sainsbury's yet.

All the financial, marketing, accounting type of jobs require me to have enough work experience which I do not have enough of so I am trying to get work experience by working at Sainsbury's! Of course, I do not plan to work there forever as that would be a waste of my degree, but I need to start somewhere if no-one wants to hire me.

I know my dad is trying to be helpful but he keeps ignoring the fact that all the companies I applied to REJECTED me due to work experience. So I am trying to build my work experience!

Roar roar roar!

Skin in my mouth?

Does anyone get a huge amount of skin peeling off in their mouth?
It is usually in the lining on all the inner lip and gums? I tend to have it every several months at a time which last for over 2weeks. I do not believe it has to do with me changing my toothpaste as I have been using Sensodyne for years now.

I have not had the routine skin peeling yet but it usually does tend to start during winter season.

Below is a picture of my skin from my mouth. Sometimes the skin in my mouth is very long; peeled from one side to the other side of my mouth.